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2 months ago
december 2nd
HOW IS THAT TODAYS DATE?
who else out here feels like there is just never enough time to do all the things you want/need to do.
Yet time moves too slowly for the things you are actually looking forward to.
Mine=moving.
too bad there are A SHIT TON OF THINGS I must figure out between now and then like um
1. school. gotta get into one to decide what city I am moving to. haha, kind of a large factor
2. money. can’t work while in school. no success finding sugar daddy. hello first loans.
3. living. apartment, campus, roommates, kitties, oh golly so many variables
4. and the one I think about most often, the boyfriend. I’m not one for laying it all out on the internet for all of you freaks to read/know. But I am sure you can figure this one out. Me living in a different city from said boyfriend= him not being boyfriend anymore. So somehow I have to avoid that scenario. Wish me luck, cause I for surely need it.
I am stuck on the concept of how to convince someone that I am special enough when I constantly preach that there are millions of people in the world, and not to get hung up on just one. Hypocritical of me, but golly gee I really want this one to work out. If you have known me for awhile, you probably don’t even know much about this guy, I’ve kind of kept him and us a bit more into the private life. But I assure you all that he is marvelous. I know that he loves me, blah blah blah. That shit doesn’t matter, love is uber relative. I have loved many, cause it is all in the moment and pertains to what is going on in your life. Basically you love until you know better, and then the feelings subside. Not to say the feelings never existed. Love isn’t necessarily permanent in every situation. mumbo gumbo pish posh.
I received good news like two days ago in regards to all of this. So, whatever. Things are moving in a positive direction. or something.
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